I'm losing momentum to keep going. I'm getting bored at the gym and finding it hard to see what the point of all this is. I'm getting sick of going up and down with my mood... one day I feel so good and the next day I feel like giving up. I'm just getting really frustrated and I don't know why... I'm seeing progress but for some reason it's not enough for me anymore. I don't get the high I use to from working out... it is becoming repeatitive. I just don't know what to do to keep going... there are days like today when I have to force myself to go to the gym... this is not a good sign.
My tap class got moved to tomorrow so I forced myself to get up and go to the gym today. I did the elliptical and the bike. 10 minutes at level 15 on the elliptical and 50 minutes at level 7 on the bike. I'm getting bored... I think tomorrow I will walk on the treadmill instead of the bike... maybe that will get me more excited to workout. I just wish that I could jog again but I'm scared to test my knee yet. :( I'm hoping to get in 2 workouts tomorrow one at the gym and one at tap class.
So I haven't been able to eat a thing today... I have just drank my 1/2 gallon of water. I'm hoping that I will be hungry by dinner so that I can have some peas, corn and brown rice and maybe some applesauce for dessert. I'm trying the cleanse again just to work off any of the weight I gained over the holidays. This week is going to be hard especially since we have chocolate covered almonds in the house... but I'm deteremined to not give in. I can reward myself with them after this week is over... as long as I don't eat the whole container. :) I'm on course to get in a full gallon of water today... just have to keep forcing myself to get up and fill my water bottle once it is empty.
I know I can't give up... but lately I'm finding it real hard not to. I just keep thinking about the people that have said I look good and am doing real good and that I can't give up and disappoint them by gaining the weight back that I've lost. I knew this would be a long hard journey... just didn't realize I would run into so many struggles. I think I will go have a cup of sugar cookie tea and try to focus on the progress that I've made so far and the positive things that have come from it. Wish me luck!
Let the lbs melt!!!
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ReplyDeleteA lot of people end up feeling unmotivated if they exercise with weight loss as their main goal (and often end up gaining the weight back). Health at Every Size focuses on what's REALLY important-- your health and treating your body the way it deserves-- no matter what size you are. Work out (and ENJOY it! Activity is fun!) and eat good, nutritious food like you're doing. You might lose weight, you might not. If you do those two things, your weight will be where your body wants it to be, and you'll look beautiful regardless.
--Leah
I agree with, Leah. I don't look at my workouts as strictly for weight control. Yes, they help that, but I mostly focus on how it makes my body feel and not just the post workout high which may or not happen. Working out - movement - makes me feel good and I know it is making my body stronger each time I do it. I do it because it keeps me healthy and strong. I stay focused on how much improvement I have made in the past year and how more badass I am going to be each year as I keep this up! Health is not a race and beauty is in the eye of the beholder and comes in all shapes and sizes.
ReplyDelete~Karen