Day 259... Let's not talk about what I ate today... ok?

I kind of overdid it on the angel food cake and the shrimp pasta salad tonight at dinner.  Other then that I've been eating healthy just a little too much. :( I'm sitting at 6 liters of water so far today and will probably get in another .5 liters before midnight.

Today was a good day exercise wise. I got up early this morning and did some strength training... working upper body. This doesn't sound very impressive but I'm impressed with myself since I had only 3 hours of sleep and cramps from hell! You try throwing a 15 lb oddly shaped medicine ball up the air and catching it before it hits you in the face on 3 hours of sleep... it sure woke me up fast especially when I dropped it on my chest! I know that 15 lbs doesn't sound like a lot of weight but when you are first starting out it feels like a lot. The first set I was only comfortable doing 8 reps but after that I knew I needed push myself harder so I did 12 reps the next 2 sets. I had a hard time getting in all of my shoulder presses but I busted them out and finished all 12 reps of 3 sets. I'm hoping that I pushed myself hard enough that I'm sore but I'm a little worried that I didn't... once again we will have to see. This afternoon I hit the gym to do my normal 65 minutes on the treadmill. I was able to do 4.16 miles... that is .10 miles than yesterday so I'm taking it as progress. I just need to keep pushing myself forward. Tomorrow is my rest day because I have Ava all day and Ben is hosting Trivia after work so no time for me to hit the gym. Thursday is legs and cardio. 

I sooo hope that I'm sore tomorrow! :)

Let the lbs melt!!! 

Day 258... Must learn not to let things get to me!

So tonight I once again went to the gym pissed off 2nd time in 2 weeks. I really need to learn to not let little things get to me and just stay focused on the positive. This is going to be a hard lesson to learn.

I wasn't able to push myself as hard as I would have liked today... I think my anger was working against me. I did however complete the 65 minutes on the treadmill and still went over 4 miles. Tomorrow is strength training and cardio.

I haven't done nearly as well on my water intake today only sitting at about 2.5 liters... could have done better! I've eaten pretty healthy today... 1.5 pieces of string cheese, 3 spoonfuls of peanut butter, 3 turkey and swiss roll ups and 3 pickles. I know it isn't a lot but that is what I was hungry for and at least it wasn't sweets!

Will have to wait until tomorrow to see how things go! I hope better then today.

Let the lbs melt!!!

Day 257... sdjnzxbzx... Ava titled today's entry!

Ava seems to want to help with today's entry! She would probably get more written then I seem to be able to tonight! Focus... focus... crap it's not working!

Today started out really good... got up and hit the gym. I did another 65 minutes on the treadmill trying to push myself harder this time. I'm still not confident enough to jog but just you wait someday I will be running! The plan for my workouts are... Sunday: Cardio, Monday: Cardio, Tuesday: Strength training and Cardio, Wednesday: Rest day, Thursday: Strength Training and Cardio, Friday: Rest day unless I take Ava for a walk, Saturday: Strength Training and Cardio. We will see how this new plan goes I can hope that it works well and I reach my goal on time! :)

After the gym and a quick shower we loaded up the car and headed to my nephew Daryk's 5th birthday party. We stopped at the store and picked up a fruit tray and some drinks to take. I went for water of course now I have 3 1 liter bottles and 1 1.5 liter bottle in the fridge that I refill. I'm sitting at 4 liters of water today but am almost done with my 5th. At the party I tried really hard not to over do it... but ended up going a little overboard once again. I had fruit, a lot of black olives, 1 1/2 hot dogs (Ava wouldn't eat hers), corn chips, some white jello concoction... no clue what it was... could of done without it. Then it was time for cake... my mom makes the best cakes really hard to resist... it was a layer of Texas sheet cake covered with dirt cake. They weren't handing out little pieces so I tried to share with Ava (she only had one bite) and with Ben (he also only had one bite)... not much help from them. There was also ice cream... I finished the ice cream but threw away some of the cake... see I really was trying to be good! When we got home I was able to bypass the evil Ritz crackers and stick with healthy options... I had about 2 pieces of chicken (Ava stole part of piece right off my plate along with some of my broccoli) and about a 1/2 cup of broccoli. Besides that I've had 3 spoonfuls of peanut butter... I know not the healthiest option but it was a better option then the 3 spoonfuls of whipped topping that I was craving! I also had quite a bit of edamame... delicious! To curb my appetite I tried gum and water... today it seemed to help. Now I'm just waiting on the asparagus to be done. :)

Mmmmmmmm asparagus and water!!!

Since this entry has drained a perfectly charged laptop battery I'm thinking it is time to be done and watch Deep Space Nine! :)

Let the lbs melt!!!

Day 256... I was doing so good too!

This morning I woke up and I was sore... I was so happy to be sore. I miss that feeling and was afraid I hadn't worked myself hard enough yesterday to make it happen. So needless to say I welcomed the soreness even if I can't walk normal! I was looking forward to going to the gym for cardio but at the same time I wasn't looking forward to doing 65 minutes. The whole workout I kept hearing my brother's voice in the back of my head saying "quit being a pussy and get it done!"... needless to say I did the whole 65 minutes. Thanks to my brother working out will never be the same I will always hear him pushing me harder and believe me that isn't a bad thing! I haven't decided yet if I will be doing the 2nd part of the strength training tomorrow or if I will go back to the gym for another 65 minutes of cardio... I guess I will see tomorrow.


 I was doing good on eating healthy today then we went to Cascade for a family reunion dinner... things went downhill fast after that. I started out ok with a piece of grilled chicken, pasta salad and baked beans. Then I went back for seconds this time having half of a burger patty, more pasta salad and more baked beans... still not bad just a lot of food. After dinner things got bad... I got into the Red Vines and marshmellows. I had about 20 Red Vines then 2 large marshmellows. Oops and I've been doing so good about staying away from the sweets. When we got home I got into the Ritz crackers having 6 and a very large spoonful of peanut butter. I'm done eating for the night and will stick with water and gum for the rest of the night. Speaking of water I'm at 4 liters of water so far today... on my way to reaching 5. 


Tomorrow I will workout then we have my nephew's 5th birthday party... which means cake... I plan on sticking to a small piece. :)

Let the lbs melt!!!

Day 255... Keeping promises even if it is hard

Ben has been on this kick that I need to start doing strength training again in order to get the weight off. I gave in last night and said that I would get up early with him today and let him show me a workout... not believing that he would actually get up and I would once again get to sleep in. Well needless to say 7:00 rolled around this morning and he got up and actually expected me to follow him... my initial response was you are seriously getting up? What you need to understand is that I don't normally get up until Ava gets up which is around 10 or 11 since we don't go to bed until after midnight so I've gotten out of the habit of getting up early... I know it's terrible! Anyways, I got up finally and got dressed, went to the kitchen and found half of a whole wheat bagel and 2 pieces of string cheese waiting for me... oh and Ben was there too. I immediately became a smart ass... I know me... never! I started saying that he was trying to kill me and that he was evil among other things. I asked him what we were going to be doing and he told me that I would be doing the workouts that his co-worker who is a power lifter made for him... I felt like I was going to be killed... I just knew I was! He said we would take it slow since it was my first time with the workout and I haven't lifted in a while. So we started and I continued to be a smart ass... I mean why stop it was too much fun watching Ben's eyes roll! Well none of these exercises were very challenging just new and different and my body didn't know how to react. When we came to deadlifts I must say that I was a little nervous especially when Ben loaded the bar up... ok so he only loaded it up to 40 lbs but for me I thought that was a lot. I can honestly say that deadlifts are my new favorite exercise and that next time I want more weight. I can still say that planks suck but I was still able to go as long as before I quit so that was a nice surprise. Next workout will be part B to this workout series and Ben says it will be even tougher then this one... I'm not sure if I'm looking forward to that especially since one of the exercises is roll outs... I would much rather do planks! One thing is for sure I will for sure push myself harder. Today was leg day and I don't feel anything which sucks... I want to be sore! Ben did say that the soreness probably won't hit for a few days but I don't think I will be sore because of how easy I took it. Next time I want my butt kicked! I want to be sweating and short of breath. :)

The only bad thing about getting up early to workout... well besides getting up early is that I start eating sooner in the day. I am a terrible eater... I will go until 4:00 in the afternoon before I eat and then I can't stop! :( Well I noticed today that since I started at 7:00 AM I was eating all day and not making the best choices. Yes some of my choices were good but the 5 spoonfuls of peanut butter and 20 Ritz crackers... not so healthy. I really need to get over my peanut butter and Ritz cracker addiction or I'm going to end up undoing all that I've worked so hard for. I was able to give up my 6 can a day Diet Coke habit why should this be any different... right? I need to get more healthy options in the house... like hard boiled eggs and salad. Ben makes the best chicken but he makes it for himself and even though he has said that I can have some of it I don't think he meant 3 pieces in one day or that I should eat all of his steamed broccoli.  I try to curb my appetite with water and gum but it doesn't seem to be working very well. I need to get over this issue if I ever want to get the rest of the weight off. :( On a positive note I've drank 4.5 liters of water today I will probably get in other one or two before bed! :)

Tomorrow I'm planning on hitting the gym in the morning and doing my normal 65 minutes on the treadmill. We are then heading up to Cascade for the afternoon for a family reunion dinner we will see how healthy that will be. :) Must make good choices!

Let the lbs melt!!!

Day 254 Part 2... Never again!

Never ever again will I let myself get like that or that blonde!

Day 218 - 254... I'm back!

So I'm finally picking the blog back up! After over a month it was time I got my butt back to the gym and start this process again. In this month I was able to stay under 165 with only a few days of going over it... that was my goal to see if I could maintain. Yay me for doing just that. I'm currently sitting at 164.6. I even took a new progress picture this evening so that you can see that I'm not lying and haven't put all the weight back on!

I still have 30 lbs left to lose before I reach goal but I'm determined to make that happen! It always amazes me when someone asks where the 30 lbs are going to come from... I just want to ask them can't you see it??? I guess I just hide it well but believe me it is there hiding under the surface and I'm sick of it!

So over this past month a lot has changed including but not limited to plans, meds, eating habits and determination. I have gone off the meds that suppressed my appetite which has made not over eating a challenge... this is something that I'm really going to have to work on. I did however got some great snack ideas from Ben's boss Jeff... one of them being edamame... pretty good stuff even Ava likes it. I've even been taking raw food classes and have some pretty delicious recipes that I can't wait to try once I can get my hands on a food processor... I'm not sure if I eventually want to go completely raw but I would like to get rid of some of the crap that I eat like hot dogs. I've been doing pretty good about laying off the sweets and am still without Diet Coke even if the stupid McDonald's radio commercial has me craving one every 10 minutes! That is one addiction I'm glad I kicked... that stuff is toxic! One of the plans that has changed is that I'm back to thinking that I want to be at goal before Ben and I start trying for a second kiddo... why not be in the best shape of my life before having a baby... it will be much easier to get back into shape if I already have the foundation laid! I'm really determined to make this work just still need to make a few changes!

One thing I need to work on is the fact that I'm having real bad strength training anxiety. Ben says that he will work with me at home to get me more comfortable. He wants to start tomorrow morning with this... I'm so use to sleeping in that this might be a challenge but I'm willing to give it a try!

As of recently I've been able to get my gallon of water in again... most days exceeding it. I've gone to measuring in liters now... 3.7 liters is a gallon and most nights I'm reaching 6 liters! :) Yay water!

Well that is pretty much everything... oh I'm not able to workout everyday because either Ben has something after work or it is too hot to go for a walk to the park but most days I'm able to hit the gym! :)

135 here I come!

Let the lbs melt!!!