Day 53... Rest Day

So today was my rest day and I must say I didn't like it... my mood is down... my energy level is down. I should have gone for a walk or something just to get the endorphins flowing today just a little bit. I think from now on on Sundays I will make sure that I at least go for a short walk.

Tomorrow is leg day... needless to say I'm not looking forward to it. I just know I'm going to be super sore. Since it is leg day I won't be doing any cardio... I should get enough of a workout in just by working my legs for 20 minutes. I just hope that I will be able to walk when I'm done.

I've done pretty good on eating healthy today. The only thing I should have done differently is that I shouldn't of had the 3 handfuls of cashews. They are super salty and I know that I'm retaining water pretty bad right now... my ring isn't as loose as it is normally. Other then that I've been eating pretty good... a clementine, cashews, a smoked turkey salad and my gallon of water. I plan on having another smoked turkey salad for dinner... they are so good.

So I weighed myself today for my weekly weigh in and I have gained. :( I'm not going to get too frustrated because I'm still under 200 but it is hard to see the scale go up. I have made the promise to myself to not get back to where I was before... I look at the picture of me at 235 lbs and it makes me sick...

NEVER AGAIN!!!!

How did I ever let myself get that far gone? I got comfortable with not being in shape and just let myself go. Never again... I have a daugther now that I need to be a positive role model for. Ben and I want to have more kids someday and I refuse to be as heavy as I was when I got pregnant with Ava. I had a lot of problems when I was pregnant with Ava and I know that my weight played a big role in that. We won't start trying to have another child until I reach my goal or am at least close to that goal. That is one of my main motivators during this journey. We don't want too many years between Ava and her sibling. So not only am I doing this for myself I'm doing this for my family as well.

Let the lbs melt!!!