Day 147... I hate being sick!!!

I'm getting really tired of being sick! It is keeping me from moving forward on this journey. I didn't go to the gym today because I noticed after working out yesterday I was all congested and really tired and I didn't want to push myself again today and make myself sicker. I'm also missing tap class for the 3rd week in a row. I think I'm missing so much tap is not because I'm sick but because I'm bored with it the only thing that I find enjoyable with tap is watching Ava walk around the studio in her little tap shoes. I'm hoping to go back next week but I don't know. I had thought maybe I could go for a walk this afternoon without getting sick but the weather turned on me and a walk was out of the question. :( I know all of these are a bunch of excuses and I hate them. I really need to start feeling better or just put mind of matter and just do it. Working with kids is exposing me to a lot of germs and I feel like I will never get over being sick and be able to get back on track with the journey.

Even though I didn't feel good enough to workout I did feel good enough to keep my lunch date with my father-in-law, Phil at our favorite lunch spot Ono. I really should have cancelled though since I wasn't feeling up to working out I shouldn't of gone to lunch I shouldn't of given myself that little treat. I didn't over eat there though even though I did kind of indulge in some dessert. Besides that I have had a breakfast bar, and a small banana wheat pancake plain at work. Once again I'm not sure what I will have for dinner... nothing sounds good right now since I had a big lunch. I've had 3 bottles of water and will reach my gallon mark tonight. I've been doing really good on getting in my water daily which makes me really happy.

I calculated my BMI... body mass index... last night. I use to be in the obese category now I'm in the overweight category... which I expected. What I didn't expect was the fact that I'm 17.8 lbs away from being in the "normal" category. According to Ben BMI is an outdated calculation but I still think of it as a good gauge to go by. Gives me goals to shoot for.

Suddenly as I'm writing this I'm craving unhealthy food... not even a specific food just anything unhealthy. I can't give into my cravings... I must be strong.

I'm going to be an aunt again anytime now. My sister-in-law is in  in the hospital getting ready to be induced as I type. :) I'm so excited to meet my new nephew. Having this going on, watching her pregnancy and knowing she will be in labor soon really makes me miss it. Not only do I miss being pregnant like I've said before but I miss being in labor too. I know I sound crazy right now but it is true. I really need to get this weight off and fast. :)

I think since the weather is clear now I might go for a quick walk around the block to get a quick workout in. It will probably only be a 15 minute walk but at least it is something. :)

Let the lbs melt!!!