So today I was determined to reach all my goals for the week so I went for a 55 minute walk/jog around the neighborhood. I really pushed myself today... so much so that I almost passed out. I jogged the entire loop around the 2 soccer fields at a local park. I felt so lightheaded during and afterwards... but I kept pushing myself until I made the entire loop... that is the longest I have jogged at one time. Even in middle school and high school when I had to run the mile on the track I couldn't do an entire lap without having to walk most of it. I'm not sure if they are the same distance but it looked like it was and for me to be able to jog the whole loop was pretty amazing. A great accomplishment for me. After I was done with the loop it took me a while to catch my breath but I refused to stop moving. I knew that if I stopped moving it would take forever to start again. The only real issue that I ran into was that it seemed like everyone in the neighborhood was buring stuff in there fireplace... I'm allergic to wood smoke so my lungs and throat burned for about an hour after my walk. Other then that I was able to recover quickly and felt extremely good after my workout. My mood was up which I have been having so much time with. I have been living with depression for so long so to finally have something that helps my mood is a nice change. If you suffer from depression I highly recommend going out and even if you do only 5 minutes of exercise you will notice a difference.
I stuck to my 1 Diet Coke for the day and once again it tasted kind of disgusting. I kind of took it easy on Thanksgiving Dinner didn't eat as much as I could have. However, I did have a pretty big piece of chocolate cream pie... should have had a smaller piece but it was so good I couldn't resist. Just means I will have to push myself even harder tomorrow at the gym. I would love to be down to 215 by the 1st of the month... just 2.6 more pounds. I think that it is something I can accomplish just have to keep pushing myself. No rest days and watch what I eat. Ben has requested that I make chocolate chip cookies it is going to be hard to resist them... might just have to let myself have 1 or none at all... all depends on how close I am to reaching my goal.
Lately, I find myself getting frustrated when I look in the mirror or look at the scale... I know that this is going to take a lot of work and time but I guess part of me is still wanting the weight to just fall off. When my size 18 jeans are still tight when they come out of the dryer it makes me frustrated... how can my size 16 jeans also fit??? Was I just fooling myself when I said that they fit??? If I put them on would they not fit now??? If that is the case then doesn't that mean what I'm doing is not working??? I'm never going to be able to get into the without them being skin tight so what is the point??? Those are all thoughts that are running through my head... I need to learn to shut them off and just focus on one day at a time and know that my hard work will pay off. Sometimes it is just so hard to be positive and look and what seems so unattainable and realize that it is it is just going to take time and determination. I have so far to go 82.6 lbs. 17.6 lbs before January 1st. I wish I was able to just know that what I'm doing will pay off and work... but today for some reason even though I'm proud of how hard I pushed myself... I am having a hard time knowing that.
Guess I will just go to the gym tomorrow and the next day and the next day and the next day and so on until I get the weight off. As a wise fish once said... "Just keep swimmin".
Let the lbs melt!!
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