No more counting days...

just focusing on reaching my goal as soon as I can comfortably!

So the 365 days have come and gone and even though I really don't like it I'm becoming more and more ok with it. The last time that I reported my weight I was at 168.2 today when I weighed myself I was at 186.4 (granted this was in pajamas and I had already ate and drank some stuff but it can't really be that far off) that is a gain of 18.2 lbs in 104 days. I'm also back in size 12 jeans if you remember when I was on track Iwas down to a size 8 with me squeezing into a size 6. That's not a good thing!!!! I have 51.4 lbs to go to reach my goal of 135. I know that if I put my mind to it I can accomplish it I just don't know if I really want to get all the way down to 135 anymore. I'm almost thinking that 145-150 would be ok with me and then just focus on toning. I really don't want to lose my curves I just want them to be firm and slightly smaller. No matter what my goal weight ends up being I just need to get more of this weight off.

Today I have had what I'm calling my last hoorah... I've had candy, pizza and diet coke. Tomorrow I start on water, veggies, fruits and nut with the occasional chicken, brown rice and tuna fish. I also hope to make it to the gym for cardio at least 5 days a week starting tomorrow. Once I get back into the swing of things I will add strength training.

I know that it is cliche to start up again on New Year's Day but I've finally reached the point that I need to regain focus and start again and I don't think that the day has anything to do with it... it was just time. I haven't taken any progress pictures recently and I'm thinking I need to redo that but here is a picture of me all dolled up for this year's Bodybuilding.com Christmas Party. At the 2011 party I was at 200 lbs this year I was at 176 lbs... not much lower but I did feel more comfortable which was surprising since we found out the week before the party that the theme was Black and White and I had already bought my RED dress. There were are few spots of red in the room but I was basically it!!!!

So here is to a great 2013 hopefully filled with shattering of goals and feeling more confident in my own skin!!!! Let's do this!

Let the lbs melt!!!